It's been so long since I have met You here
Since I have said these words or cried these tears
And like a child would come I run into our secret place
And as the music fades, the tears are rolling down my face
I am alive in this moment
In this moment I am found
I am alive in this moment
In this moment I belong
It's been so long since I have met You here
Since I have heard You speak or let You near
And like a wayward son I've come with nothing left to hide
Here in this moment I have come to offer up my life
I am alive in this moment
In this moment I am found
I am alive in this moment
In this moment I belong
Here only one fire burns, it burns
Here only one melody is heard
Once again for the very first time
My eyes are opening
Starfield is my new obsession. And this song for sure. I tend to interpret songs in certain ways. However I can fit it into my current life situation is how I sing it. When I first heard this song I knew it was obviously about someone who had turned away from Christ and was ready to get things right again. They had a moment of decision to come back to their first love.
But now I interpret it differently. My current life situation is longing to be a mother….dealing with my unending loss, and struggling to trust God wholly with my future dreams. So now. This song means something completely new.
I am alive in this moment, in this moment I am found. I am alive in this moment, in this moment I belong.
It’s been a long time since I’ve met God with those words. Just to be happy exactly where I am. No longer do I want to yearn for tomorrow, be alive in THIS moment. Today! And I am. Jesus gives me life, new abundant, unspeakable life! And I know I am found in this moment and I can’t change that. I must embrace it and use it to define my life. I will never be able to go back to the day before. And I’m okay with that. I am SO alive in this very moment and in this moment I belong. God didn’t wake up this morning and say, “Oh my goodness Christi, I am so sorry all this happened to you. I had no idea. You’re struggling down there?? Let me figure out exactly what is going on and I’ll figure out a way to help….”
NO! He has me in this moment, he placed me here with his very own hands. He drew up the blueprints before it all happened. And in this moment is where I belong. If it is where God has put me, I wouldn’t rather be any where else. Sometimes I think I would, but deep down I know, that would be a scary place, without him.
3 comments:
I have been learning the exact same thing!
Hmmmmm.. he must really love us both to be teaching us this ;)
Love you Christi!
Amen sister!! I think we all need to be "alive in this moment" and let God do His thing.
I do not know you, but I stumbled onto your blog a couple of days ago by way of a friend's blog. I have been reading your entries and I have been touched more than you can know. I am so incredibly sorry for what you and your husband have been going through. I have been going through a VERY rough time since January and your words of faith have really encouraged me. You are such a beautiful person, both inside and out, and I have been praying for you since Friday when I found your blog. I do not think that God could choose a more perfect person to be a mommy and I am conviced that He has that plan in your future. You have shown me that God has plans behind everything and all things work together for good for those who love Him. Although it is an awful thing to go through, it will work for the better. Your butterbean did not go in vain. He or she is with Jesus and waiting to meet you. Jesus has your whole life planned out and the thing that always comforts me is that nothing is a surprise to Him. I find so much comfort that He knows our past, present, and future and loves us so much. He has wonderfult hings planned for you and your husband and I will continue to pray for y'all.
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