The Pitcher Has Tipped...

Remember a while back ago when I said, “I feel like God has been filling up a pitcher of blessings for me, and just waiting for it to get good and full and then….it will tip!” Well, it certainly has!

Oh I wish I could get across my major excitement in this meager attempt at a post but I know I won’t be able to (so feel free to exaggerate the excitement you feel 100 times and then you might be close to imagining). If I haven’t mentioned it lately, my God is good. So good, even when my life is hard and we are dealing with tough things, he has proven himself to me…he is good. He has redeemed so many situations in my life just in the last month….let me explain.

Oh where to start? Okay, take my role in the church for instance. A year or two ago a group of women (and myself) decided we saw a need for a Girl’s Ministry at our church. Where girls can just be daughters of Christ without those pesky boys hanging around. I just saw so many girls finding their identity in boyfriends and appearances rather than who they were created to be in Christ. Now I see them piled up on couches every week in their PJs with no make-up, just getting real with God. It’s amazing, God has blessed our numbers and last time I checked we had over 70 girls on the role….in just one year it has grown to be such a staple in the lives of these girls…and me. I love this ministry, God has given me sooo many ideas for this ministry but, to be honest…I was the youngest one of the “founding women” and until I finally showed them what I was made of, I don’t think they took my suggestions and ideas very seriously. (They didn’t know my walk or my passion for this ministry…I’m sure some of them thought I was just a young girl wanting to have “shallow fun”). But soon I was able to gain their respect and I became the main teacher every week. I remember last year thinking, “I have so many places I want this girl’s ministry to go…but I’ll never be able to have my way.” There were so many older, wiser women than myself. But this year something strange happened. All of the “founding women” dropped out except two of us. It was crazy reasons like…they all of a sudden got extra responsibilities at work, or they had to focus more on another ministry at the church, or yadda yadda yadda. But there were only two of us left….the main director lady, and me! So we split up into two locations this year (since we had grown so large). She led the Pcola group and I led the Pace group (which you think would be smaller than Pcola…but Pace girls rock and show up in bunches!). So this year, I got to throw some of my own ideas into things…and we actually DID them. With a new group of leaders eager to try something new, we started a whole new spin on things. And it worked! Everyone loved the new face of Chosen (that’s the name of our ministry). In the middle of this, our church suddenly re-arranged some things…the youth paster moved up to college and the middle school paster moved up to the youth. I loved our old youth paster but I am VERY good friends with our new youth paster and his wife. In fact, she helps me with Chosen now and they live right down the street. She and I became close because they lost their first baby at the same time that Justin and I lost our second one…it’s an immediate bond.

So, anyway, a few months into Chosen this year, the Main Director lady came to me privately and poured out her heart. She basically said that God is pulling her in another direction, that she didn’t want to go, but she KNEW he needed her to leave Chosen. And not only that, she said he also told her that it was ME who needed to take over. It just so happens that one week earlier, Whitney (the youth pastor’s wife) and I were riding in the car and I just started spouting about how much I desired for Chosen to be MY LIFE, for me to be a stay at home mom, with a monogramming business and dedicate myself to this ministry of high school girls…how great that would be?? The Chosen Director spoke with the youth pastor and told him what God was telling her, and he immediately agreed. He said that God had confirmed it in his heart immediately…this position was for me! People….this is no small thing….I couldn’t have planned this if I tried….ME, the director…I’m so young, oh I am sooo happy. I love these girls and this ministry and AHHHHHHHHH. Thank you Jesus. So I am now the official director of the Olive Baptist Church Girl’s Ministry…Chosen.

Okay, so I have just begun so if you are tired of reading…find someone else who hasn’t been touched by the very hand of God…because I can’t KEEP from singing his praise! As if that weren’t enough, The Prissy Pink Polka Dot is doing amazingly, especially now since I have my new fancy machine! The orders are backed up as we speak

Okay Okay, so here is the juiciest part….we had a women’s night of worship (we have those quarterly at our church) and I got to speak at the last one. When Leah asked me, I knew I had to say yes…God didn’t add this to my testimony in vain, I had to use it to encourage and help others. So even though I REALLY did not want to be everyone’s sob story, and become “that poor girl” up on stage. I did it. And I tried so hard to focus on the victory God has given me through this. We took a large portion of the night to pray over the women in our church who are having trouble conceiving or with miscarriages, etc. We prayed for babies. We acknowledged that Satan has waged a war against the young godly wombs of our church, I know that he hates our babies….but I also know that my God is bigger and stronger and that if we came together to pray for mercy that he could defeat this victory that Satan was winning in our lives. That was exactly one month ago…and I have heard that 5 of these women are PREGNANT!! These are not just any ole women who got knocked up….these are women who have not been able to conceive! It’s is nothing short of a miracle…PTL! And I am one of them…yes, you read right…..we’re expecting! I have no doubt it was an answer to the prayers of so many women combined that night. One of my best friends is one of those women also….and we are at the exact some place in our pregnancy! We are going to have some much fun strolling our little babies together…I just can’t wait. So here I am, elated that this time next year I will be a stay at home mom, small business owner, and paid director of the girl’s ministry. God is good.


**I wrote this post a few days ago...and never actually published it. Now, we have just found out that we indeed just lost this baby also. I have a progesterone deficiency but it was caught too late. Maybe this will give us hope for next time...although I find hope to be fleeting at the moment. Please continue to pray for our family.